PRO ANA/MIA? I need to talk to someone.?!

PRO ANA/MIA? I need to talk to someone.?

Is it sad that if I actually could vomit what I eat and or not eat at all I would. I work out 20-60 min mostly cardio & stretch & weights. I have no self control, I am counting calories, eating "healthy' no fast fod, i hate soda, I like chocolate though. I love carbs -pasta, yum, but I CANT stop eating like a normal person, its like i wish i could get an eatig disorder temporarily so lose then be normal, please dont get offended,i know im wishing a serisous problem on myself and for someone who has it your probly hating me calling me a sad joke of a wanna be but i have to be honest withsomeone even if its a complete stranger. Advice?

5 days ago
BAD BAD< i do realize. the thing is i dont have an addictive personality- i guess its good that i dont or with the way i see myself i prob would already have an eating disorder, i just need to let my frustrations out- i appreciate everyones opinions & suggestions, and no i dont think ill ever have an eating disorder- i DO want to lose it the health y way but when you diet and exercise and make a "lfestyle" change as i have already and 6 weeks in you see nothing and its as important to me as it is, this is what craziness starts to make me think. thanks for all of your advice- i cant afford a shrink- so you guys will have to do!

It is very sad that you want to do that. I could and did do it in my teens and early 20s and it became an addiction that I couldn't control. It ruled my life, wrecked my teeth, and made me miserable. While I thought I looked great, a lot of people thought I looked ill, and it took me years to get back to being a normal person. I spent thousands of dollars getting my teeth repaired. My metabolism was so slow after starving myself for so long that I had to allow myself to gain weight and then work on getting it off in the regular way, eating right and exercising. Believe me, it is not something you want to do. I know that you are thinking it's an easy way out, but it's not, you will pay for it. A lot of people have trouble controlling themselves when it comes to food, but you just have to try your best and not resort to these measures.