What kind of issues do i have? How can i solve it?!

What kind of issues do i have? How can i solve it?

My mind can only take so little. If someone upsets me, just a little, I rip some of my hair out. I break things, sometimes I hurt that person badly. If nothing helps, i go to the last resort... cutting.

I do it in places where no one can see anymore. I cut .. and deep. It makes all the pain go away, it feels as if i just screamed my lungs out, and i feel much better. Just as i think the pain goes away, more stress comes along, and i cant seem to yell anymore. The cutting just seems to continue.

The thought of calling up your friend and hearing them say how stupid it was, saying that theyve been through more **** and that my pain is nothing compared to theirs, makes me feel like no one else is here to support me. If my best friend cant, who CAN?

Be supportive dammit! It sucked talking to you, and I'm saying bye so i can go take out my anger from you, on myself. It seems like that cutter of mine is more sympathetic than you are!

What is my problem?!?

3 weeks ago
Things have gotten better for about 2 weeks now. So hopefully the happiness doesnt go away =/ Its the only thing blinding the stress, helping me resist, or makes me feel better.

Every mind has the same limits as everyone else's, it's just based upon how it was molded during your childhood years. How your parents were there to guide you or your friends to help you out with different areas in life. Or, if a certain relationship sparks up with a guy, who is totally manipulative and over-bearing. From that, he can brain-wash you in many different angles and especially in a young age, the brain can be formed however the guy wants it. Same situation with pedophiles, how they manipulate the little kids to do whatever they want at a very young age.

The cutting is, yes, stupid, just plainly idiotic and stupid. Anyone who inflicts pain to themselves means that they don't love themselves. And, as a rule, the only way you can love another if you love yourself first. Why cut? To me, that's not a way to "vent out", that's a way to get attention, for people who lack the comfort of attention. You're basically screaming out for help, for people to look at you and grab their notices that you're in pain. We are all animals, and the last thing you want to show is your weakness, then the other animals will pounce onto you like a vultures on a wounded lion.

Lastly, if you believe that not only your best friend can help you out, that's not the truth. The ultimate person that can provide you the help, is actually yourself. All the pain and anxiety is locked in your mentality, and the only person that can heal that is you alone. You believe that you need people to solve your questions, while in fact, every human mind has the capability of solving it's own questions. You just seem lost because you don't look outside of the box, you just wait for a person to help you out. That's not the solution, only you can literally help yourself. The most important advice I can give you is to be happy, look at the brighter sides of things, don't just linger onto the past and to all the unfortunate scenarios you've been through. You're not the only one who gots problems young lady. There's 7 billion people on this planet, think about the others who are literally worse than you are in this particular situation.

So stay happy yo, peace out.