I just..I really don't know what's wrong with me?!
Question:
I just..I really don't know what's wrong with me?
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it's really hard to explain. I think maybe it's paranoia. or all the family stress i had to go through recently is making me afraid to sit just be calm. i just dont know. I feel like I have to worry about something at the back of the mind. all the time. like i fear getting too 'comfortable', so to speak. to offset this, i try to indulge myself in work (classes cause I'm a student) so I dont keep thinking about it. i sort of create an issue and keep and keep and keep thinking about it, and i know its not healthy, but i dont know what to do. parents were workaholics my entire life. there was always a problem, always some conflict, always some confrontation to deal with, always stress. i live in fear. fear of what, im not sure. fear of being normal, of living life? i used to feel guilty when i 'wasted' time because of what my mother did used to do to me, to make me tell her what i did with every hour, with every minute of my day. now not so much but i just dont know whats wrong!
Answers:
Go to a mental health counselor. Don't be ashamed to go see one! You will be glad that you did it.