Are you this pathetic or have you been?!

Are you this pathetic or have you been?

I have completely stuffed up my life and am so ashamed of myself, now i work at my dads office and live at home and spend all my time thinking about complaining, i dont eat, i dont sleep, i dont laugh, i dont talk, i dont relax, i dont clean my car, i dont care about anyone else, i have turned into this horrible selfish person, i am on meds and seeing a counsellor, but nothing can change my actions over the last 6 months, i completely hate myself, i dont clean my room, i barely put petrol in my car, i have wasted 6 monhts of my life being unhappy but i dont know how to change it, everyone has lost respect for me and i dont blame them, i'm that ashamed i want to kill myself but dont becuase of firends and family, but i have totally stuffed my life and could have done so much with it, i dont want to stay like this forever but the only thing that could fix it is to turn back the clock 6 monhts and for me to do things differently, even two months would be enough, are you this pathetic 23

i know this is hard for you, but you have to put the past in the past, and concentrate on your future. it seems by you not doing the things you're supposed to do is because you keep dragging up the past and belittling yourself. you need to prove to everyone and show to everyone who you really are. your family and friends are always gonna be there for you when you need them