How to stop fear, trust and get close to someone?!

How to stop fear, trust and get close to someone?

Everytime I meet a wonderful person, I always come up with some excuse, why it wouldnt work out. I fear of getting hurt. My mother died at a young age, and I grew up with my father a business man, who moved me around a lot, I had 4 different mothers. Who have verbally and emotionally abused me. I am not acustomed to kisses or token of affection. I love and lost many close friends because of my unstable lifestyle. I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder. I sometimes feel empty inside. This year I have dated 3 wonderful men, but for each one I somehow find a way to ruin it and push them away...I would love to break this barrier and have my own family one day.

Ever hear the line, "sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching, love like you've never been hurt." ?

I know, it's hard to do, love like you've never been hurt, because unfortunately, you will get hurt, everyone does. And it sucks. The thing to realize is that the hurt goes away, things always get better, and things always happen for a reason. When you meet a special person, it's difficult to let yourself go, be yourself, love like you've never been hurt, but I truely believe it's the best way to love, because one day, you will find that person that will love you the same way, love you like he's never been hurt, and you'll be amazed at how good that feels. You have to learn to take chances, and yes, like I said, you will get hurt sometimes, but all that hurt is what prepares you for what will one day be the most amazing relationship you could ever have, and the hurt will be gone and forgotten, and you'll wonder why you waited so long to love like that and let yourself be loved. That is key... let yourself be loved.