Sometimes i wish i was dead im really depressed?!

Sometimes i wish i was dead im really depressed?

I have been depressed for a while now. And at this point i feel like crap. I read these other stories about people who are depressed with problems that can and will eventually get over with. But i am depressed because of my future. So i cant change or get help for something that didnt happen yet. I feel like i will never have the love needed to get married. Thats why i have planned to live alone forever. I have asked my mom and dad for help but they dont believe that my depression is that big of a deal. I dont see a reason to my life and i feel like an accident. Sometimes i wish i could die because i dont see what there is to live on for. I am usally very mentally strong and can get over problems in the present. But my mind has expanded the the question "what if..." is killing me inside. I dont feel good enough for anyone and unworthy for anything i do. I even feel unworthy for god sometimes.

The future? We cannot predict what the future will hold for us, we can prepare the best we can but that is about it. The future is what we make of it we strive for what is right, and fall down along the way just a part of life. What does it hold? Possibly untold treasures, a loving wife a son, a daughter in time grandchildren. I never thought in my wildest dreams I would be where I am today, yea still poor but a loving wife of over 20 years two kids that love and respect me and two grandchildren that I would give my life for. Life is a journey and you never know what direction that journey will take. You just have to be willing to go with it. SO everyday find one positive thing that has happened, and hold on to that. Then get up and find more positive things, the old saying there is a silver lining to every cloud is true. Make it happen Believe in yourself and never let life beat you. Stand up and say I will make the best of this situation I will not give up, I am stronger than that.