Question:
Severe emotional abuse?
I am divorced lost my job and am living in the basement of my childhood home. I have a twin brother who takes over the whole house. Every day he is telling me to kill myself and do me and everyone else a favor. This is going on for years. He tells me Im a useless piece of human flesh. I had a nervous breakdown yrs ago and have suffered severe depression and paralyzing panic attacks for over 20 years. I have 2 children who are almost grown and my 18 yr old is constantly yelling at me about money. She gets support but since shes in HS it is not directly given to her. My abusive mother who is now quite old never changed her ways. If Im late paying for this shithole Im thrown out homeless. happened many times now. On top of the money I pay to live here I pay $600 alone in cable/tv access a year. (Im treated like a child I am not allowed to get my own" I was never allowed out past 10 pm until I was 28 I had to babysit her. She was too afraid something would happen to my brother so shed make herself sick. Then when her parents got old I had to wipe them and care for them. I dont have my own kitchen nothing. Stuck here in the basement. My brother AND mother reduce me to tears every day. Im no good Im a loser (this coming from a guy that must live with his mommy) Im a waste Im a failure Im ugly (since car accident) Im scum Im useless well all this increased my panic attacks and depression. I applied for SS Disability as I been suffering for 25 yrs and my problems have interfered with my holding down a job. I dont even have money to get a cheap motel room for the nite to get out of here. How can I let someone know the abuse Im going thru and what help if any can I get? I cant take living like this. I dont think anyone should wake up every day in fear of what its gonna bring and cry themselves into a fitful 2 hr nap at nite. Thanks
Answers:
Gosh hun it sounds like you have been to hell and back! :(
Here's what I would do. I would try my darn hardest to find a cheap flat/apartment someone far away from that abusive family of yours. Get another job, look high and low for one - no job can turn you down due to your disabilities - it would be discrimination if they do which you can sue for!
Try seeing a counselling to help you deal with what you have been through. And maybe see a therapist to treat your panic attacks and depression. I know how it feels to have bad panic attacks as I have been going through them for 4 years. Therapists do help and you can get them through the NHS if needed x
Instead of paying the $600 dollars to your family use it to pay for your own place :) It must be very hard for you and the best advice I can give you is to stay strong x As hard as it sounds you can do it :) You were brave enough to speak out on here and you will get through it xx
Don't take any crap from your brother - argue back if you must! If he tells you to go die tell him to go get a life and to get his head out of his **** because for someone to tell someone to go kill themselves is worthless.
Stay strong hun xx