Everytime i go out i feel depressed , enraged , jealous , left behind in life , !
Question: Everytime i go out i feel depressed , enraged , jealous , left behind in life , what do i do !?
i go outside and i see life, people carrying on with their lives , an im shut out , dont have what they have!. im at many disadvantages in life as you will soon see!.!.
im weak physically , torn ankle ligaments in my left ankle, due to a sprain a year ago!.
an inadequate penis, its not as thick as other guys in ' girth ' - is only just about 6 inches - plus the head of my penis is small compared to otther men, not big broad mushroomed shaped!.
im angry and jealous about how my lifes turned out and what other people have in their lives!.
im 30 and well left behind in life!.
heres my circumstances in general:
How am i suppose to succeed in life - achieve my goals when the local community treats me like this !?
How do you handle aloof, dismissive, stand-offish behaviour from people in your community !?
ive been treated by people in my local community like this for a long time but just tried to ignore it!.
to say, i have had long term psychiatric problems, i have BPD and ptsd , regretablly i used to have rage problems and rage outbursts years ago, where id lash out and lose it in public , it would cause me to be publically embarressed and humiliated , attacked by strangers, pointed at and laughed at etc!.
the rage came from years of abuse and bullying where i never stood up for myself and i bottled up anger throughout childhood!.
iam now nearlly 31, and sadly i have a big disadvantaged history - no employment history - no education or qualifications - long psychiatric history - and a criminal history over 7 years back for an assault , carrying a knife in a rough area, i spent time in a psychiatric hospital to!.
i regret all these mistakes, but my life has had incredabllle misfortune!.
i now view myself as a reforming character and im trying to pursue help with the psychiatric services - theyve told me ther is no individual psychotherapy - that im not ready for intense group therapy - so they reccommended a local resource centre to help me better integrate with mankind again because i have been isolated in my 1 bedroom apartment for so long!.
i live on disability, i own very little possessions, my only goal in life is to ; gain a decent job in IT computers and to emigrate from the uk - leave england for good to a hot coastal climate!.
although i accept i wouldnt get into australia or america!.
im depressed because iam disadvantages, and those are big goals to go for - and im not prepared to lower my sights!.
in my local community as ive said theres some people who still remain to be socially aloof - stand offish and dismissive towards me!.
i have thought maybe people remember me from my rage outbursts years back !?
or because im mixed race hispanic mainly living in a white area !?
or im viewed as the local weirdo, somebody to avoid !?
or its a conspiracy by the local community in the north of england to socially alienate and ostracise me !?
these are the thoughts running through my brain!.
the way ive been handling it is by being ' aloof ' back, short with people back - as im not about to ' jump through hoops ' to be accepted!.!.
throughout my life, because of my problems, ive never formed ; any ' social relationships or friends!.
im starting from scratch , im isolated, my future is uncertain, i have alot to overcome , ill probablly faced alot of biasis and predjudices outthere!.
the people who are aloof are people like ; helpline workers , authority workers , cashiers , store workers , library clerks etc!.
like i say i aint kissin no butt to be accepted - so how do i handle this behaviour !?
i feel very enraged and confused towards it!.
also because of my past rage outbursts , lashing out at people, times when ive lost control of aggression on the internet , ie ; verbally threatening people on youtube, because they said insults - people on here ' goading ' insulting my questions - the n i get aggressive and fire back aggressive emails etc!.!.!.
i now feel paranoid that im marked down as a known crazy outthere in society - like people have something on me to use against me etc!.
also;
does anyone know of any person who faced extreme adversity or ex criminal who managed to turn their life around against all the odds and achieve their goals in life !?Www@Answer-Health@Com
im weak physically , torn ankle ligaments in my left ankle, due to a sprain a year ago!.
an inadequate penis, its not as thick as other guys in ' girth ' - is only just about 6 inches - plus the head of my penis is small compared to otther men, not big broad mushroomed shaped!.
im angry and jealous about how my lifes turned out and what other people have in their lives!.
im 30 and well left behind in life!.
heres my circumstances in general:
How am i suppose to succeed in life - achieve my goals when the local community treats me like this !?
How do you handle aloof, dismissive, stand-offish behaviour from people in your community !?
ive been treated by people in my local community like this for a long time but just tried to ignore it!.
to say, i have had long term psychiatric problems, i have BPD and ptsd , regretablly i used to have rage problems and rage outbursts years ago, where id lash out and lose it in public , it would cause me to be publically embarressed and humiliated , attacked by strangers, pointed at and laughed at etc!.
the rage came from years of abuse and bullying where i never stood up for myself and i bottled up anger throughout childhood!.
iam now nearlly 31, and sadly i have a big disadvantaged history - no employment history - no education or qualifications - long psychiatric history - and a criminal history over 7 years back for an assault , carrying a knife in a rough area, i spent time in a psychiatric hospital to!.
i regret all these mistakes, but my life has had incredabllle misfortune!.
i now view myself as a reforming character and im trying to pursue help with the psychiatric services - theyve told me ther is no individual psychotherapy - that im not ready for intense group therapy - so they reccommended a local resource centre to help me better integrate with mankind again because i have been isolated in my 1 bedroom apartment for so long!.
i live on disability, i own very little possessions, my only goal in life is to ; gain a decent job in IT computers and to emigrate from the uk - leave england for good to a hot coastal climate!.
although i accept i wouldnt get into australia or america!.
im depressed because iam disadvantages, and those are big goals to go for - and im not prepared to lower my sights!.
in my local community as ive said theres some people who still remain to be socially aloof - stand offish and dismissive towards me!.
i have thought maybe people remember me from my rage outbursts years back !?
or because im mixed race hispanic mainly living in a white area !?
or im viewed as the local weirdo, somebody to avoid !?
or its a conspiracy by the local community in the north of england to socially alienate and ostracise me !?
these are the thoughts running through my brain!.
the way ive been handling it is by being ' aloof ' back, short with people back - as im not about to ' jump through hoops ' to be accepted!.!.
throughout my life, because of my problems, ive never formed ; any ' social relationships or friends!.
im starting from scratch , im isolated, my future is uncertain, i have alot to overcome , ill probablly faced alot of biasis and predjudices outthere!.
the people who are aloof are people like ; helpline workers , authority workers , cashiers , store workers , library clerks etc!.
like i say i aint kissin no butt to be accepted - so how do i handle this behaviour !?
i feel very enraged and confused towards it!.
also because of my past rage outbursts , lashing out at people, times when ive lost control of aggression on the internet , ie ; verbally threatening people on youtube, because they said insults - people on here ' goading ' insulting my questions - the n i get aggressive and fire back aggressive emails etc!.!.!.
i now feel paranoid that im marked down as a known crazy outthere in society - like people have something on me to use against me etc!.
also;
does anyone know of any person who faced extreme adversity or ex criminal who managed to turn their life around against all the odds and achieve their goals in life !?Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
You have let others destroy your life it appears!. You talk about all the bad things you have done, and I know people that are in prison for murder charges!.!.!.child abuse, and other truly horrible things!. So you kicked someone when you got angry!. !.!.you have suffered far more for it than anyone else has!. You were bullied, !.!.!.okay, you are not being bullied anymore!. You have not got the help you need, and you are becoming more and more bitter and impatient about it!. Of course "ex-cons'!.!.can rehabilitate!.!.!.I know more homeless men with far worse situations than you ever had, that are still trying themselves to get help!.!.!.You should try to save up your money, and get the correct help you need, and stop depending on the free help from the government, because it sounds like to me that they have totally let you down!. Don't wait for them, you proabaly won't get any help, when you could go to a doctor, and pay for about three or four visits, or even more, or monthly and get the meds and the help you need!.!.!.why are you suffering like this when you can change it so easily!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
You have such a lot of rage - you should go see a counsellor or therapist and find ways to deal with it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I've tried to help you before so I can only ask - do you listen to people's answers!? I really think you need to get some professional help!. Most people on yahoo answers will only ridicule you!. Go and speak to a doctor!. There is more to life than this!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Are you sure you meant girth!? or Length!?
Maybe you over analyse situations, have you ever thought that people don't really see you that way!?
Speak to a councillor and good luckWww@Answer-Health@Com
Maybe you over analyse situations, have you ever thought that people don't really see you that way!?
Speak to a councillor and good luckWww@Answer-Health@Com
You are still very angry!. You seem to be blaming life on other people and although you recognize your past mistakes, you do not take responsibility for them, but blame the reactions of others!.
Don't lower your sights!. If you can study IT to a high level then go for it!.
Why are you upset by 'aloof' shop assistants and library workers!? Their job is to be polite and efficient, not your friend!. Certainly being rude back to them will only make them more defensive!.
It costs nothing to be polite!. You are not bending through hoops to make friends, just being civil!.
You are also rude to your community, yet blame them for your rudeness!. Try to be polite and pleasant to all you meet, whether they reciprocate or not!. I don't mean forced conviviality, or talking to people when they'd rather not, just courtesy with a smile!.
Good luck, study hard and maybe a new beginning in a warmer climate is just around the corner, but you have to leave your anger behind!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Don't lower your sights!. If you can study IT to a high level then go for it!.
Why are you upset by 'aloof' shop assistants and library workers!? Their job is to be polite and efficient, not your friend!. Certainly being rude back to them will only make them more defensive!.
It costs nothing to be polite!. You are not bending through hoops to make friends, just being civil!.
You are also rude to your community, yet blame them for your rudeness!. Try to be polite and pleasant to all you meet, whether they reciprocate or not!. I don't mean forced conviviality, or talking to people when they'd rather not, just courtesy with a smile!.
Good luck, study hard and maybe a new beginning in a warmer climate is just around the corner, but you have to leave your anger behind!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
so why would other peoples happiness be a trigger for your rage,when you are happy,do you look over your shoulder!.
Yes,i do wonder if you want an answer!.
Exactly what can a penis be inadequte for,if it is not used for making friends!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Yes,i do wonder if you want an answer!.
Exactly what can a penis be inadequte for,if it is not used for making friends!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Little Louisie Lou
was lonesome with nothing to do!.
So she sat on the stairs
and counted chest-hairs:
4,302!.
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was lonesome with nothing to do!.
So she sat on the stairs
and counted chest-hairs:
4,302!.
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You really should see someone to talk about all of the issues you have, you need to take control of the way you feel and accept and love yourself before other people can!.
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