Has it ever occurred to you....?!
Question: Has it ever occurred to you!.!.!.!.!?
to commit suicide!?!?!?!?
and why!?!?!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
and why!?!?!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
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I have tried to commit suicide many (MANY) times!. The first time I was 4 or 5 y/o!. I remember thinking that no one cared about me, that I had no reason to be alive, that I was a bother to everyone and it was my fault that (bad) things happened!. I was going to jump out of the bathroom window!.!.!.which was on the second floor!.!.!.someone pulled me out of the window!.!.!.I still!.!.to this day!.!.!.have no clue who pulled me out!. The next time I remember trying to kill myself I was 11 or 12 y/o!. My parents were gone!.!.!.I guess my dad was at work!.!.!.he was in the Air Force!.!.!.and I don't know where my mom was!.!.but I know she wasn't home!. I dont' know why I was home alone but I was!. I was feeling so sad and that life was pointless!. I felt that it was my fault that my mom was always sad and that it was my fault that she had the miscarraiges!. It was my fault that my older brother got arrested!. It was my fault that my sisters beat me up all the time!.!.my fault!.!.!.I must have done something wrong because my older sister would lock me in the closet for hours upon hours and threaten my life if I told anyone!. I overdosed on children's tylonal!.!.!.2 full bottles!.!.!.I remember openning them for the first time!.!.!.taking out the cotton!. Eatting all the pills!.!.!.it was easy because they were sweet!. I dont' remember passing out or waking up!.!.!.but I remember my dad letting me stay home from school because I was very (VERY) sick!.!.!.I got to watch tv!.!.!.my mother was no where to be found!. The next few times happened when I was in high school!. We had moved out to Peru (KS) in the middle of no where!. 2 miles from the closest town!.!.!.but 5 miles from the closest town that had anything!. We were in the middle of a forest!. Lived on 20 acres!. My dad moved us out there because he got a job with Cessna!.!.but quit because he was having major issues with his supervisor!.!.!.he moved back to Wichita (KS) which is like 3 hours away!.!.!.he got an apartment and lived there!. My mom got tired of living with us and all our complaints and arguments!.!.!.she left us!. Moved in with dad!. She would come back like every 2 weeks to bring us food and food for the animals!. The first time I tried to kill myself out there I was about 16 y/o!.!.!.I had just got yelled at and slapped by my aunt!. I took a knife out into the woods and had decided that I was going to slit my wrists and make is so they never found me!. It didn't work!. I coudlnt' even get the knife to scratch my skin!. The second time I was almost 17 or was 17!.!.!.my younger sister was constantly telling me how much she hated me and how it was my fault that both mom and dad had moved way and left us!. I tried to slit my wrists again!.!.!.but this time my younger brother took the knife from me!. That same night my parents called and my younger sister told them what I had tried to do!.!.!.Dad showed up a few hours later pissed!. I dont' remember what happened then!. When I was 18 or so I started collectng plants!.!.!.ones I knew were poisnous!.!.!.I ate them but they did nothing to me!.!.!.but made me sick!.!.!.I guess I didn't eat enough or they just weren't strong enough!. And the final time when I was in high school I tried to drive my car into a deep ditch going almost 70!.!.!.but I changed my mind at the last moment and almost ended up in the ditch anyway!.
When I was 23 I planned on overdosing when my husband and his brother left the house because I was so tired of living a lie!.!.!.I felt that my husband didn't love me and I was the cause of all of our problems!. When I was 24 I tried to overdosing!.!.!.because I thought all the problems we were having were my fault!. When I was 26 I tried to drive over a bridge into a river because I was tired of feeling the way I felt and having the thoughts I was having!. and this year I tried to kill myself with an overdose because I didn't feel (and still don't) a reason for living!.
I am still very suicidal but I don't have the courage to kill myself!.!.!.or I'm very cowardly!.
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When I was 23 I planned on overdosing when my husband and his brother left the house because I was so tired of living a lie!.!.!.I felt that my husband didn't love me and I was the cause of all of our problems!. When I was 24 I tried to overdosing!.!.!.because I thought all the problems we were having were my fault!. When I was 26 I tried to drive over a bridge into a river because I was tired of feeling the way I felt and having the thoughts I was having!. and this year I tried to kill myself with an overdose because I didn't feel (and still don't) a reason for living!.
I am still very suicidal but I don't have the courage to kill myself!.!.!.or I'm very cowardly!.
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Absolutely, many times and even tried it about half a dozen times!.
Why!? My depression wasn't under control and my chronic pain had made me incapacitated!. For 16 years I literally starved from weight loss surgery gone bad and had to have my entire stomach removed!. I have to get all my nutrients from protein shakes and vitamins as I can't absorb them from food with no stomach!. I felt worthless and hopeless and like I would never amount to anything!. Most importantly I wanted to end the emotional and physical pain!.
The last time I was actually set up to do it and was ready was 6 years ago!. I didn't tell anyone; I was at the end of my rope and there was a warrant for my arrest for something I didn't do!. I was writing letters to my family instructing them what do with my things and who should get my cats and crying the whole time!. Then my cat Choobie climbed on top of me and wouldn't let me continue to write the letters!. He looked up at me and it was like he was telling me not to do it!. It was like he knew and didn't want me to leave him!. Although I had thought about taking him with me when I died, I was concerned that I would live and he wouldn't, so I decided not to take him!.
Then my other cat came up and they both were licking me and purring and I knew that I couldn't leave them and my family!. That whatever was going to happen I would just have to deal with it and it would be okay!.
The criminal charges were dismissed and life got better!. I still have periods where I get down and hopeless, however I know that they will pass and have not seriously thought about it enough to put any plan in action since!.
Even though I do suffer from excruciating chronic pain, had 3 surgeries in the last 7 months!. Haven't had the use of both arms in almost a year due to surgeries!. I know that I am strong and will survive!.
My husband and I are losing our house and he has to file bankruptcy and we don't know where we will live!. However, I have faith that it will work out and if stress like this is not sending me into suicide mode, then I imagine my medications are working!.
I have and will survive!
Michelle
Looking forward to moving to a better neighborhood and getting a Masters in Psychology and working as a therapist in the prisons in the mental health unit!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Why!? My depression wasn't under control and my chronic pain had made me incapacitated!. For 16 years I literally starved from weight loss surgery gone bad and had to have my entire stomach removed!. I have to get all my nutrients from protein shakes and vitamins as I can't absorb them from food with no stomach!. I felt worthless and hopeless and like I would never amount to anything!. Most importantly I wanted to end the emotional and physical pain!.
The last time I was actually set up to do it and was ready was 6 years ago!. I didn't tell anyone; I was at the end of my rope and there was a warrant for my arrest for something I didn't do!. I was writing letters to my family instructing them what do with my things and who should get my cats and crying the whole time!. Then my cat Choobie climbed on top of me and wouldn't let me continue to write the letters!. He looked up at me and it was like he was telling me not to do it!. It was like he knew and didn't want me to leave him!. Although I had thought about taking him with me when I died, I was concerned that I would live and he wouldn't, so I decided not to take him!.
Then my other cat came up and they both were licking me and purring and I knew that I couldn't leave them and my family!. That whatever was going to happen I would just have to deal with it and it would be okay!.
The criminal charges were dismissed and life got better!. I still have periods where I get down and hopeless, however I know that they will pass and have not seriously thought about it enough to put any plan in action since!.
Even though I do suffer from excruciating chronic pain, had 3 surgeries in the last 7 months!. Haven't had the use of both arms in almost a year due to surgeries!. I know that I am strong and will survive!.
My husband and I are losing our house and he has to file bankruptcy and we don't know where we will live!. However, I have faith that it will work out and if stress like this is not sending me into suicide mode, then I imagine my medications are working!.
I have and will survive!
Michelle
Looking forward to moving to a better neighborhood and getting a Masters in Psychology and working as a therapist in the prisons in the mental health unit!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Yes, I have have thought of it before and I actually tryed it but It didn't get anywhere and the reason it didn't is because I knew that I had people that loved me very much and I didn't want to hurt them, But at the same time I was in a very bad depression so I wasn't sure what to do so I started to cut myself to get the anger, hate, and pain out!.!.!.But that didn't lead to anything good at all, I just ended up in a mental hospital for a while!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I lost a friend to suicide!.!.!. my brother lost two friends to suicide!.!.!.
It's the most horrible thing you can do to yourself and anyone who cares about you!. You will ruin the lives of the people around you!.
Nothing is EVER so bad that you should kill yourself!. Things ALWAYS get better! :)
Oh, and to answer your question, yes, I tried once when I was 15!. Thank God it didn't work!.!.!. some aren't so lucky!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
It's the most horrible thing you can do to yourself and anyone who cares about you!. You will ruin the lives of the people around you!.
Nothing is EVER so bad that you should kill yourself!. Things ALWAYS get better! :)
Oh, and to answer your question, yes, I tried once when I was 15!. Thank God it didn't work!.!.!. some aren't so lucky!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
yes, i but i wasnt actually PLANNING to!. i was just thinking about it randomly!.!. like i thought about what it would be like to be an animal or something!. get it!?
dont think about it!. your too good for it!. how do i know!?
because everyone is!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
dont think about it!. your too good for it!. how do i know!?
because everyone is!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
All the time, lately!. It's more that I wish I was dead!. I don't think I could kill myself but I have wondered if you could put a hit out on yourself!.Www@Answer-Health@Com