I need advice: serious people only please....About a year ago I was raped. I kno!
Question:
I need advice: serious people only please....About a year ago I was raped. I know I should have reported it...
but I didn't. See, my dad sort of is the police. He's a detective for the county we live in. I don't talk to him very often and he still thinks I'm his perfect little angel. I would have been to embarassed to go to him or anybody else for that matter. That isn't what I"m asking about though. See the thing is that after it happened, I was so ashamed and too embarassed to tell anybody. I mean, it was my own fault for putting myself in the position for it to happen. I thought I could handle it, I thought I would be able to deal with it and get over it on my own. I'll just get straight to the point. I think he gave me an STD. I don't know who to go to or where to get help. I feel like I have lost my whole life because of this. Having it is bad enough. But, it has taken away my whole future. I can't even try to love another guy because I know I'll never be able to be with him. I don't mean just sexually, but that's part of marriage. I guess I'm asking, what do I do now? Who do I go to now?
Answers:
I am so sorry this has happened to you but I'm afraid you need help. You really should see a doctor about the STD, you could go to a free clinic or hospital, nothing to be embarrassed about. There should also be rape hotlines and things (although I don't know where you live). I feel you also need therapy, and to report the rape (it doesn't mean you are no longer a perfect little angel and your father should be sad, but not ashamed, and if he is really ashamed then he's an idiot I am sorry to say) at some stage. Is there nobody you can trust?
Email me if you need more help or just want to chat. I felt sad reading that and would love for you to get past this. But you will have to take some steps. It will be hard, but it's the right thing.