I feel like my entire life is a lie.?!

I feel like my entire life is a lie.?

I feel like my entire life is a lie, and it has been since my teens. For some reason I cant just spit out the things I want/need to say, and be who i am. I try, sometimes i dont. nothings working though. sorry this is really broad, i cant spit out what i need to say, not even to strangers on the internet. its eating my life away i have virtually no happiness left in me at all. im a basketcase, you dont have to answer or say anything, i just need to get one step closer to attempting to say what im trying to say that i just cant say, WHOA lol im rambling about it. sorry:( that was the lamest thing ive ever done, if i seriously post this im an idiot. ok im an idiot. done

All is vanity. Just live. Find someone to sleep with. Get a degree. Drink a little beer. Eat some good food. Read interesting things. Go to a museum. Test drive a fast car. Fight someone. You get the idea. You take everything too seriously. So do I.

Stop watching TV.