I'm afraid of my father and I don't know why?!

I'm afraid of my father and I don't know why?

He's never done anything bad to me. He's never so much as even spoken badly to me. He was actually my hero when I was a kid, but I was always scared of him.

I'm always suspicious of what he's doing and when he leaves I'm calmer than when he's there. When he comes back I want to cry and I don't look him in the eye. I answer his questions and try to seem as polite as possible but I'm very afraid of him and I want him to leave. I always think he's doing things behind my back. When I was little and there was a sniper in our town, I thought it was him. I also thought that when he left on business trips he went to his other family and I always thought they had a Labrador Retriever.

When I was a kid I was also obsessed with making sure all the doors were locked and we'd go around together to make sure that they were all locked but I never believed him and would go back and check by myself.

I know it's not normal, so why am I like this?

4 weeks ago
I'm fifteen and I'm seeing a psychologist for depression.

Have you told your mom about these thoughts? If you can't tell her, then please talk to a trusted adult female, or see a therapist as soon as possible. Maybe something is lying deep in your subconscious mind that is troubling you now, involving your father when you were younger. Tell a therapist your fears, & she can help you, because talking about this will help you. You don't want this to follow you all your life. I was afraid of my dad for years, but therapy helped me resolve my fears.