How can i fix myself?!

How can i fix myself?

Okay so when i 15(i'm 17 now) i had sex with a guy who in the end didn't like for me and and just liked me for my body.so that kind of made me not trust anybody I meet.It took my best friend 2 years before I could trust her again. I think everybody wants something from me.I think every guy that dates me likes doesn't like me for me but only like me for my looks.I don't really tell people how I'm feeling.I push people because of the fear of being rejected or hurt.I don't have many friends because again the fear of rejected or hurt I'm always a ***** to people I just meet so that way they don't wanna talk to me.I always hurt people before they could hurt me.(i just did that to my ex bf).How can I fix this

3 days ago
I do have passions I'm really passion about music,writing,and photograpy

3 days ago
its just me and my mom.my dad died when i was 9-10

Unfortunately, you're being your own worst enemy right now. You're convicting an entire race of people, men and women, based on the actions of one. Your reaction (hurt them before they hurt me) is understandable, but is also counter productive, huh? It sounds like you'd benefit from seeing a therapist and learning how to change your feelings by changing your thoughts. Not everyone is out to get you and the problem with saying to others, "Leave me alone, leave me alone," is that one day, you will find yourself alone. My suggestion is to go through therapy and I hope you feel better.