Whats going on with me? I feel like theres nothing I can do!?!

Whats going on with me? I feel like theres nothing I can do!?

Alright, well for as long as I can remember ive never been happy, Yet I dont think I would classify as being depressed. And Lately I have been cycling through emotions like crazy.I go from apathetic to depressed to very anxious to irratable and so on throughout the course of a day with rare occurences of happiness and anger. I have trouble expressing myself. I don't like being around people and I dont like being by myself. I feel like people are lieing to me or decieving me even when they are being what would seem to be sencere. I have lost much interest in things I once loved. A small conversation with someone irritates me. I smoke pot to stop the feelings but all it does is make them less severe. I have a part time job but I dont feel like Its worth the effort I've been making, everyone their seems to be getting more hours and praise then me no matter how hard I try. Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy. I just need to resolve my emotions. Im only 16 and feel alone! Please help.

4 days ago
Correction- **on occasion smoke pot**

For the people suggesting meds and therapy. My mother is against medication so it will never happen and I have a very hard time talking to people. I cannot express whats in my head verbally so therapy is a very difficult thing for me however worth a try. Thank you for all your help!

Well first and foremost, I want to let you know that you are not alone. I am no doctor, but I have suffered with mental illness since I was in my early teens. Since you are 16, most doctors are very weary to give you a diagnosis becuase most teenagers seem to go up and down with "growing up" and changing. However, from what you are stating, you sound like you are depressed. You may also be suffering a tiny bit from bi-polar disorder, although, that would be something that a doctor would need to help you with. Both problems can be resolved with medication and therapy. There is hope just around the corner. Do you have a support system? Your parents or a friend you could turn to. You really need to tell them how you are feeling and get in with a psychiatrist (one who diagnoses and treats mental illness) as soon as you can. If you do not have health insurance, there are always chartiable facilities that can help you out with little or no cost to you. I am not sure what state you live in, but check with them.

As far as the pot is concerned, stop it. It is only making things worse for you, since it is a depressant. Taking illegal substances or illegal drugs, even alcohol in the hopes of making yourself feel better to "numb" the pain will only make it harder for you in the long run. Stop while you are ahead.

Good luck to you. I wish you the best.