Am i becoming anorexic?!

I have so much to say, and I hope I don't turn you off by my LOOONG response! Now I know you’re 13, and what I have typed here contains an awful lot of “adult” ideas. I think you can handle it, you’re not an idiot. If you were, you wouldn’t know enough to have come to ask for advice. If you don’t know about everything I wrote here, I am sure you know how to use Wikipedia and Google just fine. If not, you can always come back here and ask more questions.

First I will address your question, which is about diet, and then whether or not you are developing an eating disorder:

There is absolutely nothing wrong with eating healthy and exercising. They are important for your body to perform at its best. There ARE healthy ways to stay fit and not starve or totally deprive yourself. One great way to try to eat healthy is to eat like a diabetic ;) This just means to try to eat whole grains, fruits, vegetables, lean meats, but still treat yourself occasionally to the calorie-loaded foods. Those unhealthy foods aren't bad if you eat them as a treat and not as a matter of habit. It's hard since those foods are delicious and easy to come by, and it is a lot more convenient to eat at McDonalds than to make yourself a good sandwich. As far as exercise, your "routine" seems a bit extreme for someone so young - usually the best way to exercise is to find things active that you actually like to do, skateboard, surf, rollerblade, bike, ski, sports... working out is alright, but there are many much more fun things to do. There's plenty of time to slave away at the gym when you're in your 30's, enjoy your youth while you've got it.

Now onto whether or not you have, or are developing, an eating disorder. There are red flags, and I am concerned that you are punishing yourself about even eating small amounts of food. I mean 4 Hershey Kisses? That is a TINY amount of food! You might have body dysmorphia and are seeing yourself as being bigger than you probably are, noticing every little bit of chub on your body and then beating yourself up mentally for "failing" at watching your calories better or not exercising enough. Granted, it is very hard to know what is healthy weight consciousness, and what is obsessive, but if you are actually ANXIOUS about eating and diet, you are on the path to ED (eating disorder), or some other addiction. You sound obsessed with counting calories. If you're being treated for OCD, you must be extremely self-conscious and that doesn't help. I question why a 13 year old would be diagnosed for OCD, there must be a really serious issue as to why. My guess is that ALL of your obsessive behaviors are making up for some lack of control in your life. How's home life? How's your group of friends? What else are you worried about? It’s not just food, it’s not just whether you are fat or thin. There are plenty of happy fat people in the world, and so there is something else going on here. You need to ask yourself the hard question – what is really wrong?

Being accepted and feeling good about yourself is very important, without feeling good socially we get depressed and do all kinds of self-destructive things. When anyone has worries and doesn't feel like they are able to do much about them, they will do whatever it takes to feel more in control. This is why every addict you have ever known and will ever know becomes addicted, whether it’s to video games, food, exercise, drugs, housework, anything can be an obsession or addiction. When we as humans feel like crap, we do things to change it - good, or bad. When trying good things doesn't really work we will try harder and become obsessed, or sometimes it will seem so bad we will give up on those things and try to forget about them by using drugs, alcohol, or becoming food or gaming addicts. We work very hard to feel good about ourselves and fit in socially, even if that work means we could end up hurting, or even killing ourselves, or hurting other people. And, addictions are so hard to break because whatever we're addicted to is easy to get/do. Changing your addictive habits is VERY HARD! Don’t start any habits you don’t intend to do for another 60 or 70 years.

Right now, you are taking control of your self-esteem by trying to be thinner. You think you will feel confident and proud of yourself for achieving that. You probably don’t even mind the idea of continuing to restrict your foods and exercise for another 60 to 70 years because it’s an awful lot easier than facing what is really going on.

I had written more, but it didn't fit :(

You do realize you ate a lot less than half of the amount of calories you are supposed to eat, you are supposed to eat 2,000 a day, don't stress man!