Has it been a crazy upbringing for me?!
Question: Has it been a crazy upbringing for me?
2. Alienated by everyone at school for 11 years.
3. Beat up my entire life by other kids.
4. Racially persecuted by both blacks n Mexicans.
5. Physically and Mentally abused by dad
6. Never knew my real father or aunt do to murder and suicide.
7. Addiction to adderol lexipro ambien and seroquil from age 5 to 17. And a brief stunt with mucinex in Fort Campbell.
8. Had to rely on pills to get me thru every second of the day for most of my life.
9. Touched by camp counselor when I was in fourth grade.
10. Beat up by adults different times in my life.
11. Abandoned by entire real fathers family and by Jeremy’s family….what’s left.
12. Almost died in a river crying out for help n pulled myself out.
13. Started developing manic depression at 15.
14. Sliced my wrists from 14 to 16.
15. Quit alcohol when I started drinking from 14 to 15.
16. Homeless family had to live with other people and couldn’t find a place lived on a couch.
17. Betrayal from many old friends.
18. Cheated on 2 times in a relationship when I was 16.
19. Had insomnia when I was 16 still have a little bit as a 17 year old.
20. Got jumped when I was 15.
21. Put down cause of my size and voice from 3rd grade to 9th grade.
22. Went to a mental institution when I was a kid three times for 2 weeks each time.
23. Put down musically many many many times.
24. My mom was arrested many times when I was a kid.
25. Got into a lot of fights as a kid.
26. Struggles with my sexuality.
27. Struggles with my weight.
28. Spent two weeks of my life watching my mom behind glass cause of her personality problems.
29. Kids were poisoned by a psycho.
30. Josh almost died as a baby cause of his immune system.
31. Shelby having numerous problems with her kidneys as a little kids.
32. Shelby almost died from poison.
33. Lived with psychos witnessed a siring by a Wicca/vampire clan we were living with.
34. Family blamed for one kids kidnapping when we picked him up when I was 15.
35. House got broke into once in 5th grade.
36. **** got stolen from our old house that which we left was stolen when I was in 6th grade.
37. Feuds between mom and dad continuously literally every single day after his 1st tour of duty in Iraq.
38. Uncle died of alcohol poisoning when I was 14.
39. Once somewhat influenced by white power not anymore.
40. Tried to overdose on ambien at 16.
41. Deep self confidence issues growing up.
42. Continuous thoughts of selling my soul to the devil.
43. Cannibalistic thoughts, homicidal and suicidal thoughts.
44. Thoughts of incest.
45. Caught my friend Jessie bout to have sex with my unconscious mom and stopped him.
46. Smoked crystal meth with Kristie and her friend once.
47. Usually had to steal **** as a kid to get something really nice.
48. **** on continuously by Garret one of the people we were living with when we got kicked out of our house and blew off by friends when I told them they were bad.
49. Had to deal with numerous rumors in school like I ****** my dog and that I raped some girl.
50. I used to mentally/physically abuse my brother and sisters.
51. Had to deal with death in the family a lot as a little kid.
52. Almost taken away from my family when I was 14.
53. Hallucinations of dead people from 14-16.
54. Horrific dreams that would keep me up creating insomnia and driving me deeper into insanity.
55. Having to deal with my moms personality disorder when she got out.
56 . Lived the first 4 years of my life with my single mother and lived in a shitty one room apartment in the ghetto of Memphis.
57. Financial problems causing a lot A LOT of food shortages throughout my life.
58. People always lying, breaking promises, letting me down, and stealing from me all my life.
59. Harassed by police a lot when I was living in Oak Grove.
60. Put a knife to my sisters neck but backed out the last second
61. Was addicted to porn.
62. Almost robbed a 7-11 but backed off the last min.
63. Dealt with many voices in my head ever since I was 16..
64. Used to please everyone cuz that’s how I thought I could become liked.
65. Got expelled from school when I was a junior.
66. Brainwashed not long after I started living with Teff and stayed that way until I was 16 started when I was 15.
67. Had to deal with voices ever since I was 14 slowly developing when I was 14
68. Grew up a lot of my life as a kid(teens mostly) without a bed.
69. I blamed all of my problems on everyone else(most notably my mom and sister).
70. Experienced mental police brutality in Oak Grove Kentucky and also physical/mental police abuse in Hanford California 1 time.
71. Was expelled from school at the age of 17.
72. Got jumped by three ******* in an LRG gang for beating the **** out of one of their members and speaking **** against them.
73. Almost impaled in the head at least three times.
74. Abandoned by a lot of men who said they’d show me how to be a man, and
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Sounds like some unfortunate circumstances and also a lot of just bad choices.
Thing is, if you are going to let yourself continue to be victimized by the problems of your past, you are never going to be able to make a future.
A lot of people have gotten past bad starts; a lot depends on your attitude, if you are going to decide for yourself what you want to do next and take control, or if you are going to wait for all the people/things around you to change (which they won't).
My husband and I did get out of it; we grew up in really impoverished NYC neighborhoods...
Not to go into too much detail, I was verbally, emotionally, pyshically and sexually abused, and otherwise neglected. I had a neurotransmitter deficiency and it nearly drove me insane. I dropped out of high school at 14. I was adopted and never met my birth parents.
My husband's childhood was even worse. He grew up in filth; never met his dad; his mom abandoned him as a child and he lived alone with teen brothers, stealing for food, and ended up thrown into a group home and spent the rest of his childhood to age 21 being raised in an institution. He has learning disabilities that have really held him back.
The fact is, we met, we saw how unproductive bad choices were, we got smart, we worked hard, we sacrificed so we could get educations.
Both of us have struggled with weight, bullies, crime, violence, emotional scars, poverty, living with drug/alcohol addicted family members, having to sleep with "one eye open" because of the threats, being alone and feeling unloved...
...and both of us think Obama sucks, by the way; you don't have to apologize for that opinion....
Anyway, we worked our butts off and turned from all the destructive things and people; we lived in someone's garage for a while, and someone else's basement for a while, it was cramped and not the most comfortable places but we set them up to try and be nice; we did it just to pay less rent and to get away from the old neighborhoods and destructive people. We worked tirelessly and scrimped and saved.
I ended up getting my GED and graduating college, with honors, and he ended up graduating trade school. We were nearing our 30s at that point, due to all the setbacks and all we had to overcome, but worth it.
We moved out of there, and while we are fairly low income still-- mainly because we decided to live on 1 full time income so one of us could be home with the kids-- it is light years better than where we started-- we live in a clean home, safe neighborhood and while we are frugal we can pay our bills, food, and are always looking to cut corners and unnecessary things like cable tv or expensive cars, sometimes can afford some luxuries like Disney World annual passes and last year my husband got a new TV/video game for father's day-- took me a year to save up for it and I bought it in case, we don't abuse credit for things like that-- but he worked so hard for so many years, he deserved it.
What's best, we are giving our kids a very healthy upbringing. We never spank them, discipline is a huge issue in our house and they are very well behaved. Education is also a big issue we stay on top of, and we choose to socialize our kids only with positive influences, they are on a really really good track.
And we are a very happy family. We spend time together, we joke, we laugh, we play board games or cards, we go on walks... very close. Our kids have met almost NONE of their relatives... they have no idea what we have been through.
So basically, it's hard, but you can use your past as excuses to hold you back now, or you can try and move past it to get to a more desirable future.
And... not for nothing... I'm Wiccan but I have no idea what a Wicca/vampire clan siring is; Wiccans don't even have clans, we are a religion and our religion has nothing to do with vampires or hocus-pocus or things out of fantasy novels. It's like any other religion-- we decorate and cook for holidays, we pray to God/dess, we follow our moral guidelines to try and be responsible for our actions. I hate that people twist our religion into something ugly from some dark fantasy rumors & stories, then people think that's what our beliefs are about.
do you think youre screwed up? the only thing that really bothered me in that list was thoughts of incest. thats really disturbing. everything else is stuff that lots of people have dealt with, and i personally think youre dragging it out to make yourself seem more disturbed.
if you really think you need help then go get it. dont ask random people on the internet what they think.