What's wrong with me??? I need help!?!
Question: What's wrong with me??? I need help!?
When I ws a kid, like from 5-8, I hardly ever taked to people. And at school during lunch, I would just walk around..and not talk to anybody. Then from fourth grade to fifth, my dad would get drunk a lot, and act really weird. Not mean, but weird :/ Than my parents split up..and my parents had like, joint custody of me, my brother, and sister. And whenever I would go to my dads place, he would always have friends over...and they would all be drinking and partying D: And in sixth grade, my mum became a drunk...and was just acting really crazy :( And then in seventh grade, my mum was always in the hospital, because we found out that she had skizophrenia...and my dad had to move back in to take care of us and stuff. Then my mum came out of the hospital in eigth grade, bt my dad still lived with us. In eigth grade I was always so sad...and I had an eating disorder too...but I conquered it myself...no one knew :/ And then my 3 best friends dictced me in the summr going fom eigth grade to ninth...and I had to enter high school with no friends :/ And I made new friends, and a best friend...but whenever she hangs out with our other friends, and not me...I feel like really jealous, and like she hates me D: And I am always feeling really down now...like I have suicidal thoughts and stuff too :/ And I hate living at my house, because my sister screams, yells, and hurts me....and calls me names...and I just can't take it anymore D: And my dad said that I could move in with him, because he got a placel ike 3 months ago....but he shares it with his friends family so I cant...and I feel like he betrayed me :/ I would tell my friends how I feel...but I feel like they wouldn't care.....and I always feel lonely, even though I have friends.....and I just can't take it anymre!! I hate my life so much D: I just....want to die :/
Please help me
Answers:
go see your a counselour.
im not an expect, but i do know that alot of mental disorders such are schizophrenia and depression are hereditary.
my mother has depression, so does over half of my female cousins on her side, and my grand mother.
im the only male who has come out with it and i dont take medication.
i also have autism, which my dad's neice also has.
it might seem irrelevant to you, but an early diagnoses for mental health issues, saves alot of time and problems in the future.
i dont know what the odds are, but having atleast one parent who has had schizophrenia, is extremely high enough for there being a chance that you will develop it too.
its good that you overcame your eating disorder by yourself, it shows you have willpower and that you are a strong person by getting through the thick and thin of before.
also, if you find it hard to cope, try some herbal tea, despite it tasting like ****, and some dark/plain chocolate. they're meant to help soothe the nerves, and certainly help me when i feel like shite; both depressed and stressed.
good luck
my head.
dont. it gets better
aww, im sorry \, what you delt with must have been really hard, but always know that things get better, god does things and makes things happen for a reason, at first it may seem bad but later on all will be worth it. also suicide and or drepresion is an acualy disease. Your genes and traits have been changes from all that you have been through, just how like your hair color can change from too much sun, your emotions and traits can change from to much exposure to bad things. please perk up and find your way out of your sad hole and find somthign or someone that makes you happy and dont think about the chances you make:) feel better