My self-image is horrible in my mind?!
Question: My self-image is horrible in my mind!?
I feel like I have to prove my worth in everything that I do because of my size and I feel like I utterly fail at proving myself even when others tell me I succeed!. I'm 6'2 and 133 pounds!. No, i'm not anorexic, I eat around 2,500 calories a day!. I try to gain weight, but I just can't, even when i forced myself to eat 4,500 calories a day (which i hated), i didn't gain any!. I work out 3 days a week with weights, I feel like I can't get any stronger because of my size!. I have to work out with the baseball team for the mandatory workouts, and I feel like absolute crap every time i go to one, because i'm a senior, should be a leader, but yet i'm like the 3rd weakest guy, right in front of two freshmen that are like, 5' nothing and 80 pounds!. It's just getting worse, I just feel like hiding all parts of my body all the time!. I never wear shorts, and when i'm driving and wearing a short-sleeved t-shirt, I can't even drive the way I want to (with my left hand at 12 o'clock) because I don't want people to see how skinny I am!. I've got horrible rounded shoulders, and from the side I look utterly horrible!. I'm 17, almost 18, and i feel like i get treated like a young boy because of my size!. In my mind, i directly correlate size with power and maturity, child=my body, man=at least 170!. i feel like i'm not worthy to even be with my girlfriend, because a boyfriend is supposed to be able to protect their girl, and i know i couldn't do anything if some guy of any considerable size were to come up and mess with her!. I don't even know what exactly I'm asking, I just wanted to let this out!. Advice is always nice!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
You sound like Arnold Swarzennegger!. He was a skinny kid before he took up weights!. Lots of protein and weight training!. Even Lou Ferrigno (The Incredible Hulk) was a skinny kid with a speach problem!. Sylvester Stalone (Rocky) was the same!. They hit the weights and now look at them!. Go to a gym and talk to those who know something about training!. Stay off the drugs!.Www@Answer-Health@Com