I want to kill myself....i'm suicidal (nothing about god please)?!
Question: i am really close to suicide and nothing i do takes away the feeling i have to just go. i hate my life. my friends have all left me. i can't talk to my family they don't understand and my girlfriend has her own problems.
since i was 13 (i'm now 16) i've never felt good enough to deserve a life. ive been bullied all my life by people at school.. and my family. but even when i'm not being bullied. everything feels wrong. i have a constant feeling that everything that happens to anyone is my fault. i make weird links back to me.. and blame myself. i self-harm with blades, but i stopped afew months ago, then changed schools and started again because i don't fit in, and nothing was making any sense. also i take pills to make myself numb cas i hate feeling the way i do. i keep panicing about life nd that i have to face another day. i just need it to stop. im' seeing a counsilor.. but its not helping. i need to go.. but my girlfriend and my best friends won't let me.. please help me...
Answers: i am really close to suicide and nothing i do takes away the feeling i have to just go. i hate my life. my friends have all left me. i can't talk to my family they don't understand and my girlfriend has her own problems.
since i was 13 (i'm now 16) i've never felt good enough to deserve a life. ive been bullied all my life by people at school.. and my family. but even when i'm not being bullied. everything feels wrong. i have a constant feeling that everything that happens to anyone is my fault. i make weird links back to me.. and blame myself. i self-harm with blades, but i stopped afew months ago, then changed schools and started again because i don't fit in, and nothing was making any sense. also i take pills to make myself numb cas i hate feeling the way i do. i keep panicing about life nd that i have to face another day. i just need it to stop. im' seeing a counsilor.. but its not helping. i need to go.. but my girlfriend and my best friends won't let me.. please help me...
Ali, you need to see your family doctor or a psychiatrist. The counselor is not going to help. You need medication and a resource that understands what you are going through. How do I know? Because I was just like you when I was 15 and 16 years old. I tried to kill myself several times and was put in an inpatient program. Even that didn't help because I was never totally honest with them. I was embarassed to tell anyone how I really felt because they would think I was a nut case. Also, I thought everyone felt like this, at least some of the time. Well, they don't. Now you have the internet where you can find others like you which is also not always a good thing. A bunch of suicidal people chatting about being suicidal is a recipe for disaster. I am now 42 and I am just now getting the help that I need. As I got older, my symptoms got worse, especially after I had a couple of kids. Somehow that kicked my PMS into high gear. Although a single diagnosis would be nice, nothing is ever that simple. It takes a while to figure out what is going on so you need to be patient. I am not going to go on about God because I hate that too when people do that but just know that you have a purpose for being on this earth and if you are gone, someone else that you are destined to affect will be robbed of that opportunity. Also, although life sucks, sometimes it doesn't. Do I sometimes still feel like killing myself? Yes, but I know recognize that feeling as a temporary situation (even though it feels like it will go on forever!). Think of it like a cold or the flu. You feel like crap right now but eventually you will feel better, and just like a cold/flu, you may need some medication to help you through it. And know that, just like a cold/flu, it will be back again.
But you can't will yourself to feel better and you can't just think of the great things in your life and feel better. You need medical help and you need to get it NOW. If you can't go to your parents (and I know mine were not helpful with this) go to a teacher, a friend's parent, or a trusted relative. Tell them to sit and listen to what you have to say without judging you or commenting. Then tell them how you feel. Print off your post and take it with you. But ask them to not try to convince you to "feel better". Ask for their help in getting you the right resources. And if you don't have anyone like that you can go to, go to your doctor or to the hospital. Will it get better? Yes. Will it get worse? Yes. But it won't just go away forever. Think about it like you have diabetes or some other chronic disease. Some days are better than others. And DO NOT BE ASHAMED! Now do it!
Susan
Please got to your parents right now. call 911 and get some help in a treatment center.
Call a suicide helpline and talk to them! Call now!
This is not the place to advertise your demise.
Seek a Crisis Hotline. Go to your local hospital and admit yourself to MHU. There, you should get the care that you need.
um r u gay? people that are just coming out feel that no one exepts them....................... just aline your self with the outcasts i know that sounds mean but they understand................. harming yourself is not the answer i feel the same way (but im stragiht) sometimes............................... many gay pp feel like that go on myspace and type in bi sexual/gay support groups or go on google and type in gay/bi support groups if you not gay/bi .
im soooooooooooooo sorry :)
hope this helps ,good luck,
chelsea
*hugs*
Please don't do it.
For the few people you have, stay for them.
Go to the book store and get some books from the self help section. Perhaps your counselor can recommend some books. Make an active effort to remedy your problems, because it will give you some sense of control. Exercise helps a lot, too. I know when you are depressed getting up and moving is a very hard thing to do, but try it. Go out and take a walk, 30-60 minutes every day. After a week or so of walking you will feel better. I am sorry you are feeling so down. You have the power to make your life better. I hope things get better for you very soon. You could call the suicide prevention hotline 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433), maybe they could help you. Good luck.
Call a Suicide Hotline
1-800-784-2433
1-800-273-8255
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Stop thinking about suicide and think about the rest of your life. You are only 16, you have your whole like ahead of you. Think about getting married, having children, having a great job. You need to get a different physiologist. .
i feel so sorry for you. you should let your fmily know how you fell and tell them what you enjoy. if you enjoy going to theme parks with family then let them know. take time to think what you wan t to do in life. if you want to work with a comouter then buy a good computer with lots of software and find someone or something to help you get better with it. report the people bullying. if they make fun of your name (and there name is lets say daniel) then tell them "at least i will be individual and i wont be forgotten that easy when friends leave and people will remember my name at jobs and stuff like that so your always promoting your individual self
please dont be suicidal and get help
They all want you to do it. They can't kill you themselves. It's fun to just watch a person go down. They act strange, they don't use logic. Even if they screw up they will make you feel bad about it.
They want you to kill yourseld or someone else. If you do that they win.
I've been there. I still am. I'm 26 and I want to die sooo bad! But I can't.
I refuse to not mention God..I don't know how many times I was suicidal and God saved my life...When you've been through alot in your life..the last place you want to go is "hell"..One of these days I want to see my mom in heaven..and I won't see her if I kill myself...
1) Call a suicide line
2) Therapy
3) Go to a place of worship
Make friends...more.it'll help,surely...I wish to chat with you though.....
That's how you feel right now. You are at a low or your end. I'm also suicidal. I get to that point where I have to take action on it or self harm in other ways several times a year. I made a commitment to call my psychiatrist and he arranges for me to voluntarily commit myself inpatient in hospital until I feel better and not suicidal. Believe me it works and will help you survive. Severe suicidal thoughts are in cycles where you have to do it. You just have to live long enough in a safe place where you can't hurt yourself until the cycle ends.
I agree with the other answers. Find someone to help you NOW. Do not wait until Monday, you feel more energetic or any other excuse. Here are two websites I found by googling "suicide crisis hotline":
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
www.suicidehotlines.com
I do not know if either of these are any good, but give them a try.
I know from my own experience that it is hard to connect to strangers to ask for help, but you have to. You are a good writer, and you should make copies of what you wrote here. It will help explain to others how you really feel when you ask for help. At this point help means medication. You need a Psychiatrist to sort this out then maybe a counselor or therapist.
Suggestions for where and who to ask for help {keep asking until you get it.}:
1. Since this is urgent, go to the Emergency Room of your local hospital, walk in clinic, police department (not kidding), Church minister. If your church is not workable, try a Presbyterian, Lutheran, Methodist church or Jewish Synagogue. These denominations are ones I know that are less "preachy" (no offense meant to any other religious groups) and are prepared to connect you to the services you need. Often there are people there everyday.
2.People you have had contact with in the past that you trust: a doctor, nurse, grandparent, uncle or aunt, a teacher, a parent of a friend, a neighbor, etc.
GO NOW. ASK FOR HELP NOW. DON'T STOP ASKING FOR HELP UNTIL YOU GET IT. Your life is worth the effort.
Pick up the nearest phone book, and call a hot-line.
Talk to someone; get into counseling.
You can get past all this. But you can't do it alone (no, I don't mean supernatural beings, I mean professionals, who've helped other people -- they can help you).