Should I end my life? it has no purpose?!
Question: In October of last year, my mother and I moved in with her boyfriend who lives 20 miles away from my hometown and lost contact with my friends. And, I went back to school and I don't even really like the school, it's full of jocks, sluts, and preps and I don't fit into any of those categories. I did make a few new friends, but their about 2-3 years younger then I am. Their in 9th grade and I'm in 12th. I just don't seem to fit in anywhere. I'm a social outcast. Plus, my best friend since second grade is now sexually active, is smoking ciggarettes, and has a boyfriend on probation, and she just told me she was bisexual. She basically lied to me because she told me she would wait to have sex until after marriage. I feel like I don't know her anymore. I live 20 miles away and can't drive, so there is not much I can do. Plus, there isn't anything to do in this new down. it's dead. I only have one friend here and he's an old neighbor o mine from my hometown, but he's 64 years old.
Answers: In October of last year, my mother and I moved in with her boyfriend who lives 20 miles away from my hometown and lost contact with my friends. And, I went back to school and I don't even really like the school, it's full of jocks, sluts, and preps and I don't fit into any of those categories. I did make a few new friends, but their about 2-3 years younger then I am. Their in 9th grade and I'm in 12th. I just don't seem to fit in anywhere. I'm a social outcast. Plus, my best friend since second grade is now sexually active, is smoking ciggarettes, and has a boyfriend on probation, and she just told me she was bisexual. She basically lied to me because she told me she would wait to have sex until after marriage. I feel like I don't know her anymore. I live 20 miles away and can't drive, so there is not much I can do. Plus, there isn't anything to do in this new down. it's dead. I only have one friend here and he's an old neighbor o mine from my hometown, but he's 64 years old.
Don't end your life. I believe you can make it. I didn't fit into my highschool, and am homeschooled now which is helping.
There are some creepy random stalkers and pervs out there, but there are some good people out there too. I've been in a similar position as you are and would love to help you out.
This past few months my family and a few other people have been working on a program to help get teens in their element, in a place they wanna be in, by moving them, helping with education etc.
If you want you can e-mail or IM me through my page and we can talk about it. There's a good chance we could help you out of your situation.
Ashley
OMG when the hell will people stop posting suicide questions
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You have a purpose. Find your own ways, it doesn't matter what others think!!! Just barge through it all and know that you will make it through. Everybody is strong in THIER OWN WAY.
Darlin,' your life does have purpose and you are precious to your creator, God. Do you have a Holy Bible? Get it and read in the book of Psalms until you feel at peace with yourself. Think about cultivating a relationship with God; you may be a little surprised at the results. Find a favorite scripture and memorize it. "Be delighted with the Lord. Then he will give your all your heart's desires. Psalms 37:4 To delight in the Lord, we must KNOW him. Taken from the Life Application Bible.
It sounds like you are very lonely with alot of things going on right now. You are in YEar 12, is it a possibility that you can move out after the school year and follow your own path in careers, uni, etc?
I was in a similar situation and I just hung in there. Life is not always happy times. It's also full of terrible, boring, traumatic, lonely, frustrating times. Sometimes these times last hours, days, months, years. Hang in there :-)
I know that it is really hard to believe this, but it will get better.
I remember how it felt to feel like your life was pointless and everything was against you... but it does get better after high school...
People like to talk about how high school are the best years of your life, but trust me, they are the worst... hands down, the worst four years of my life...
But you are in grade 12 - you're almost done! You're almost out, and then you will see - you will do a lot of growing up, and changing, and evolving in the years following high school and into your 20's, and you'll be able to look back on how strong you were to get through it all, and get out, and get on with it, and make something amazing out of your life...
I promise you... it will get better...
I'm not just patronizing you either... it wasn't that long ago that I was where you are (I'm 24), but it feels like a lifetime ago...
Just stick it out... someday you will find your purpose, and a few people who think you are awesome, and you will be able to celebrate how unique and amazing you really are.
:)
why should u end your life?????? the purpose of life is to find the purpose of life..... u will find the purpose of life........ there are so much things u can do...... just try to make new friends until u really found friends that really suit u........ join some school activities like drama and so on to increse your social circle..... the starting is always harder...... once u get more new friends, u will not even think of wanna end your life...... plus, if u have time to ask wether u should end your life or not, why don't u use the time to find new friends or join some healthy activities??????
No you should never end your life!! Its highschool....one day you will look back and it will mean nothing..everyone goes through that kinda stuff. Stick it out things will get better even if you dont think they will...they always do =)
no you shouldnt because its never to late
I always look into the future when i'm feeling down... i mean.. have an ambition, were do you want to be? What do you want to do with your life? you can acheive whatever you want and picture your perfect life, you can do this so do not give up. Yeah school sucks at times, but push through it, get good grades and live a life you a proud of!
WEll I had a best freind who i moved atleast 45 miles awayfrom. Now we dont talk, and I have no freinds in my new school. I'm okay with that. I'm even bulliedby This Idiot in my class. (kicked, Punched, slapped, Tripped, Pushed into wals, Pushed off of a 2 foot platform)Fight it. Its not worth killing yourself over.
please...just hold on
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I am almost a freshmen in high school so I know how you feel. I have a learning problem to but sometimes it is a good thing. Like you get all kinds of assistance the teachers have to make sure you understand things, and a teacher of myn last year told the class if you have that you get all kind of help in college, technical school etc. And for the school part I also know how that feels my school is the exact same way and I hate it,,,especially sense I have been there sense kindergarten. (its a k-8 school) and all the kids are sluts, preps and jocks also and I can't stand that either. And I only have a few Friends also but they are my age but aren't always nice. As for being friends with 9th graders that's a good thing! I know that maturity differences between a senior and freshmen are huge but age is only really a number, so be happy with them! Before you know it you will be graduated and out of there on to a new school and ready to meet new people. If you can't Handel the school tell the end of the year I would look at transferring to a different high school. But don't commit suicide, that's never the answer you have so many things to look forward to in life and 17 or 18 (guessing that age because u said u were in the 12th grade) is to young to end life. Maybe you could see a counselor? Good Luck!
Misery and isolation are terrible. I would suggest that you can survive over the long run if you get into therapy and go inpatient in a hospital before you get to the point of taking action on ending your life. There is a downward spiraling pattern to these feeling. I get them too. You may not be able to stop those feeling completely but you can survive. You can't do it alone. You need support. Let people know your feelings who can help you to survive. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. Everything is kept confidential. There are also hot line phone numbers with people you can talk to when your are near the end. The suicide prevention lifeline, which is run by the federal government, is one place you can start with. Hope this helps.