What's the use of me staying alive if EVERY person I interact with is poison!
Question: How is it that EVERY person I deal with, family even worse, I'm putting myself in the position to get hurt physically or mentally? I hae to spend Xmas & New Yrs. completely alone. People always discriminate against me & make fun of me, beat up on me, take my money, tell lies on me, cheat me. I'm about to cry right now. I'm trying very hard not to call the crisis hotline or commit suicide. I already cried earlier today. I'm about to cry again. Either that or punch or kick a hole in the wall. My brothers came ALL the way over to my house, just to get their kicks out of violating my pet peeves & laughing @ me, & whispering, talking bad about me. They even stole some of my CD's & DVD's. My brother was INTENTIONALLY smacking on his food, & I told him. Don't do that because you'll trigger off an anxiety attack for me. He had this, "B!tch I know u ain't talkin' 2 me"-type look on his face & then smacked more & LOUDER. I was curteous enough to feed them. When I put on my earplugs they laughed.
Answers: How is it that EVERY person I deal with, family even worse, I'm putting myself in the position to get hurt physically or mentally? I hae to spend Xmas & New Yrs. completely alone. People always discriminate against me & make fun of me, beat up on me, take my money, tell lies on me, cheat me. I'm about to cry right now. I'm trying very hard not to call the crisis hotline or commit suicide. I already cried earlier today. I'm about to cry again. Either that or punch or kick a hole in the wall. My brothers came ALL the way over to my house, just to get their kicks out of violating my pet peeves & laughing @ me, & whispering, talking bad about me. They even stole some of my CD's & DVD's. My brother was INTENTIONALLY smacking on his food, & I told him. Don't do that because you'll trigger off an anxiety attack for me. He had this, "B!tch I know u ain't talkin' 2 me"-type look on his face & then smacked more & LOUDER. I was curteous enough to feed them. When I put on my earplugs they laughed.
My brother can be a pain in the *** too .Your going to have to do what you have to do in order to take care of yourself and be the most happiest.
The rude, stupid, annoying things other people do is just a reflection upon them, not you. Know in your heart that you are better then that. You have manners, are respectful and very sensitive.
A highly sensitive person is going to have a harder time accepting the way some people are, and will react negatively.
Try to think of it this way... Soon, they will be gone, and things will be good again.
Brothers do have a way to annoy their sister, that is for certain.
It is also the Holiday season and it is extra stressful. Rise above the occasion, and try to be happy about who you are.
You need to lighten up. I would laugh too if someone put on ear plugs just to get rid of the sound of a noisy eater.
This is your life. Why waste it over trivial things and by keeping yourself down. Have some fun. Eat noisier than your brother and then for a laugh spit food at him.
OK so I'm being slightly sarcastic but honestly you need t learn how to lighten up. Life's too short to be so down and serious.
You've got serious problems, and they aren't everybody else in the world. Get professional help.
I read your question but not the extra crap because the venom spilled all over from just the question...
You recieve a reflection of what you put out, nuff said.
Old Guy
learn to love the "who you are" and the poison you sense from others will fall from you like water off the back of a duck.. You are the most important person in your world. when you understand that others will be attracted to your self confidence. your outer looks do not matter At All. your beautiful inside, if you want to be. and that beauty will flow to the outside as well.
Life can come at you in so many different ways, and it isn't' always nice. YOU have to make the best of it. Just avoid the people who aren't all that friendly to you and meet some new people.
Committing suicide won't do you any good. (You would go to hell for it, and I don't think that is any better than what you're going through now)
even if you aren't Christian, you should pray to God for guidance
I know how you feel. I have had this feeling since years. To make it worse, I have actually tried calling up people to talk to, but of no use.
This year, things look a little different. I have taken a huge risk and am trying to make this coming week eventful. I have decided to go out for 5 days, with someone I like, though I am feeling I would be smacked down and critisezed for anything I do or anything I do not do.
I am just taking things to cross a thread, so that even if it gets eventful, it would be this way or that way. I wanna break free and I guess even you feel that,
Our inside strings are binding ourselves. I have learnt it the hard way the we all are basically alone . And we got to make sure that others, outsiders, including family, do not have a right to make us depressed any longer.
It is ok to slam doors at others.
It is ok to feel free.
Its is ok....
Just remember that YOU are the important one. Your brothers? They are the Unimportant ones. Unimportant, insignificant and small.
YOU are the important one. Dont let them into your house or into your space. If you need to, call the cops and have them removed. They sound like bums anyway. Time to take out the garbage!!!!
get out
move away
find beter peopple
that aside, are you sure its everyone else and not you?
a simple hypothetical, please dont hold it against me, its somethin i try to tell myself when i reach for the knife drawer